Priceless Moments

It's been a while :-P
And I've written something two weeks ago.. and I think it' s finally something worth posting ^^
I think it's quite self-explanatory.
Here it is:

Priceless Moments (July 09)

These moments
As I look into your blue eyes
See your perfect and infectious smile
Which has so much to give
These moments
Are capable of making my day

You were there all along
Threre was always a part of my heart
Longing for you
But I was never brave enough to confess

I got fooled by those mask wearing cowards
Who didn't bother to show their real faces
Not even as I finally got to open myself
Not even as their plans were revealed
Trying to get to them
Just to realize
That their intentions were never pure

I felt torn apart with nothing left to feel
It's been a while
But there you sat smiling at me
I could feel how feelings resurfaced
And how all the cracks were mend
Just can't help it
You make me smile

Here I am trying to get myself to finally tell
I know you would never hurt anyone intentionally
You're so kind and trustworthy

But what if you don't feel the way I do?
What if I screw up as I always do?
What if it just doesn't work out?
I'm not sure if I could take one more

I just would't risk by any chance to lose you as a friend
I wouldn't want situations to be awkward
Not with you
Not because of these silly feelings of mine

So for now
I just watch from a distance
Just watch you smile
Not risking to lose these priceless moments

You Were There

You Were There written by Jess (June 08)

Thought I could never escape this black hole
Felt lost and empty in the dark and cold
Thought I could never stand up
Revive from this darkness around me
Thought I could never get rid
Of this numbness inside me

But there were you
You brought light, warmth and hope back to me
You gave me strength
When I thought I couldn’t make it
You were there
When I needed you the most

It’s only after those tumbling events
I realize
I don’t have to get through things alone
Because you are there

Broken family, broken heart
It doesn’t matter
Because it’s with you
Where I feel at home

It’s with you
Where I can be myself
Because you take me as I am

May it be fate or not
that our paths crossed
I’m very thankful to call you my friends
Because without you
I’d be still sitting in the dark
Alone



This is a text I wrote in June 08 after the new record of 3 Doors Down was released. The lyrics of this record really inspired me to write this. I wrote it for my friends who were always there for me.

And today I feel that I have to thank again.. 'cause you're the ones who always build me up when I'm not feeling well!

"In this ever changing days.. you're the one thing that remains" (Chris Daughtry - Feels Like Tonight)

This text is dedicated to to all who really do care:

• my (unfortunately) ex-classmates: we had the best time together! Lausanne, Basel, Tschiertschen, Prag and Staré Splavy ruled ^^

• concert buddies: Whether cozy tunes or heavy metal, concerts with you are priceless!

• my soccer dudettes: we'll kick some serious asses in this second half of the season =)

• the B.O.D crew: You have the best bar ever! Legendary nights^^
  

• the LMM girls: Last Monday of the Month = best and loudest (^^) Monday of the Month
  

and specially dedicated to:

• Manuela and Martin: Always there no matter what! I’m always welcome in your homes! You treat me like a family member! I really appreciate it! Thanks!

• Silvana: We understand each other without words..

• Sarah: I will never forget W:O:A 08! You have a unique way to make me smile =)
  

• Patricia: Somehow connected through music =) Will never forget our first Metal concert ;-)

• Andrea: Always there to listen.. someone I can always turn to!
  

• Nicole: Our conversations are priceless.. The serious and senseless ones ;-)

• Barbara: We always have an awesome time together! Greenfield, 3 Doors Down, B.O.D.. just to mention some great moments!

• Martin and Janick: Who knows.. maybe I would never have been infected with "GAS" if it was not for you! Remember I was the ONLY one who did not get annoyed by your "guitar conversations" ^^
  

Thanks guys you all are the best friends I could ever have!

The Night When Rain Turned To Snow

Second entry =) Something I wrote over a year ago (once between January and February 2008). It was the first thing I ever wrote down on paper. Maybe it will turn out to be the lyrics of a song one day. I have something in mind but all my attempts to write failed.. Maybe one day ;-)

It does not describe my current mood at all but I thought I had to post this because it's, as I already said, the first thing I ever wrote.. so it's not really good.. actually it's just a succession of thoughts I had at that time.. but I think it shows the state of uncertainty I was in.
The three last paragraphs were added a couple of months later. They kind of deprive the uncertainty. But I added them because as I wrote them I was finally able to draw the line.

A creepy thing is that exactly one year after I wrote this.. all seemed to get back to me again.. almost like a déjà - vu..
But anyways I'm doing fine and I realized that I can open up the cucumber jar on my very own xD

The Night When Rain Turned To Snow (written by Jess, February 08)

What am I going to do?
All changed that night when rain turned to snow
Don’t know whether it’s wrong or right
What shall I do?

Why are you playing with me?
Can’t you see how I suffer from all this agony?
You play me like a little fool
But maybe I’m not the right player for this game

After all this time
You give me the chance to get things done
It’s my decision again
Nothing that blames you

What am I going to do?
Maybe it was written in the stars that night
When rain turned to snow

Don’t know if this hole you left inside me
Can be refilled again
Maybe not even by your hand

Don’t know why we should try again
Can’t tell why I still love you
The only thing I know is that I do

Together again will your feelings change
And will I be left in the dark once again?

Maybe it was written in the stars that night
When rain turned to snow

You don’t know how it feels
To be far away from home
Missing only one very person
But knowing that the person doesn’t expect you
If you return

You have now idea how it feels
After all this suffering
To notice that the sun warmed someone else

Was it written in the stars that night
When rain turned to snow?

First Entry

Yeeeeha.. my first entry^^
After this very weird weekend (weird in many ways^^) I can say that I can finally see things from another point of view.. The things my mind already knew for quite a while now finally reached my heart.. And I just couldn't express it better than the song Over You of Daughtry.. That's why I thought that this song would be a good first entry =)


Over You - Daughtry
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysNaXinGxi0

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
And what you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long long time ago
And I never thought to doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes, so I could see
That you never were the best for me

[chorus 2 x]

I'm putting my heart back together

'Cause I got over you
'Cause I got over you
I got over you
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you